Sunday morning...
sigh, these few days have been quite horrible to me.. went out on sat, got a frightening experience.. watched dark water with a friend, and when i realise it, i don't dare to take the lift all alone at night.. timid right? urgh.. can't help but remembering the movie scenes.. you know what? 'wo tian bu pah di bu pah'.. meaning not scared of the sky not scared of the ground.. lol.. but i scared GHOST!! urgh.. now everyone knows my weakness..

well.. sat is sad too.. seems that i had hurt someone? did something really really wrong.. she's hurt and sad.. and i'm not feeling any better either.. it was just another BIG mistake.. sorry..

well, today is a special day to me.. my birthday? lolz.. 'yeah~ happy birthday to Alan~' everyone seem to say this to me.. lol.. but how come NO PRESENTs?? urgh.. this year so sad.. only have presents from my dear poly classmates, dear meimei, Yiqing, Xiaoyan, Shiri and Soyoen.. *must type out contribution list, make others guilthy =P*
even my foreign friends send me letters and emails to wish me happy birthday wor.. sad.. so sad.. sigh.. =P well, actually its good enough that you guys remember my birthday lor.. received 44 sms yest.. lol.. abit kua zhang hor? =x
oh yeah, and my dear Jialin! she goner give me presents when we meet next time wor? so nice, so sweet.. =]
*study hard Jialin! hope you pass all test with flying colours!*

hmm, today not going out? nah, going out later.. where? lol.. not going to celebrate lor.. whats so nice to celebrate? anyway, don't have gf to celebrate with me, might as well don't celebrate? lol.. wait till i found someone lor.. goner help Berlin with her maths later.. giving tuition lor.. you all must be thinking 'huh? giving tuition on birthday? win liao lor!!' i also thinks the same.. but bo bian mah.. Berlin needs help.. cannot 'jian si bu jiu' =P

hmm, did i post anything that i hate rich men's kids last time? i did? sigh.. can i take back my words? cause i got to know someone lately who aren't bad at all.. in fact she's totally opposite.. someone i always thought can be seen in dramas only..
*Tingting, sorry if i offended you k? took back my words*
well, Tingting is a very nice gal.. well, although i don't really know her well, she's good to friends.. in fact she's good to everyone, kind and caring gal.. she's not like those who use money to buy anything in their path.. someone i really respect and admire.. =]

hmm, WC.. Brazil in, Germany in, Korea in, Turkey in.. this is sucky.. watched the match between Spain and Korea? that's the most fake match i had ever watched in my entire life.. hope this kind of fixed match will stop, if not WC wouldn't be that nice to watch already.. anyway, i was hoping Senegal to win.. but too bad the turks won the golden goal.. let us pray we get to watch Brazil vs Germany in the final.. i don't wish Korea to get through again.. if not i swear i won't watch WC ever again.. NB..

kk.. got to go give tuition le.. supposed to meet at 1pm.. now's noon.. need to bath, makan, everything..
cya ppl..

Sigh...
wondering why i didn't post in the morning? i was home WHOLE DAY.. damn flu.. attacked me while i'm off guard.. damn those viruses..

today really aren't my day.. Gloria cancelled tonight's plan to watch WC at BQ as she had some church stuff to do.. somehow i felt being had on.. on the aeroplane again.. and that sucks..
the damn doc i saw just now, he didn't give me an MC.. i was damn piss off man! *oh sorry, i can't give you an MC as you have no high temperature.* for goodness sake he did see that i'm sniffing all over!! and i went to see him not because i have any fu*cking fever but for the fu*cking flu!! DAMN!! feel like ripping his guts out someday.. he's one big sissy i tell ya.. sound like one act like one.. better don't let me see him on the newspaper tomorrow if not i'll be laughing my head off! grrr...

BRA won, ENG out.. great.. won another 50 bucks.. but somehow i felt ENG should have won the match.. referee was bias, and that stupid near-bald ENG coach didn't do anything.. and thanks to him Owen got substituted by Sherringham.. what the hell he brought out that old man for? i know its his last WC, but that doesn't mean he have to play his last match?? damn.. and that referee.. so many stupid mistakes.. damn that mexican..

urgh.. totally no mood to write anything.. maybe i'll continue these crap tomorrow.. going out with someone *winkz* tomorrow for a movie.. guess i goner enjoy? you bet! =P~
tata~

Hmm...
work ending soon.. yeah, finally ended thursday.. might be going out with Jiarui later for billard, FINALLY.. been so long since last saw him anyway. and i can finally rest after a long day's torture.. physically and mentally.. *siGhx..* only a single person will know what i mean.. and that person i won't tell you who either.. =P

feeling abit down hearted now.. contradicting right? one moment i was saying about 'love is in the air'.. the other moment i'm here blabbing about being down hearted and stuff.. damn fu*king contradicting.. urgh.. i'm feeling so.. so... sigh.. nvm.. maybe i'm just so bored..

horoscope says Cancerian goner get their love in this month.. i wonder if that's true? hope its true.. really hopes so.. and i really hope thats true love too, not just another bitch trying to fu*k up my life.. no offense to you all gals, but somehow that's what i had through in the past.. i won't go into it, no worries..

damn, i'm feeling so horny lately.. what the fu*k is happening to me? damn.. really feel like slapping myself.. URGH.. nvm..

kk.. stop these crap..
byez..

Oei..
wah liew, let you post you still say so many bad things about me.. who do you call IDIOT?!?! KAOZ.. billard? LAI LAH, scared you ah! even LEE wins STEVENS yesterday wor, mai siao siao. wondering who the champ this year will be..

hmm, oei, really very long never come out liaoz leh.. nb.. so long never pah billard too.. later all forget how? cannot ah, must play ah, hands itchy ah.. so long never come out le, si bei sianz also.. bored to death working leh.. onz ah, this sunday go your house make hair ah? don't later say you going out with gf can liaoz.. lol.. i think i will go cut hair during sat lor..

tomorrow me going bq watch WC, lol.. watch that stupid GER and that tyco USA.. who will win? ENG vs BRA too, who will win? actually i guess ENG and GER leh, you? i think this year black horse very scary leh, although i won alot from them already.. lol.. all at internet haven't being collected yet.. GER and ENG all the way lor? lol.. watch that stupid BRA play with BEL until si bei sianz.. BEL so suay, BRA so lucky.. that first goal so tyco, and BEL finish all so poor.. sighz.. BEL should have vs ENG leh.. whatever..

kk, first time see you post abit funny, this is still supposed to be my own crapping place, lol.. actually i hope all of them will email you rather than me.. lol.. me abit headache le.. everyday so many emails..

hmm.. kk lah, must call someone le..
no time for this le..
tata~

Morningz...
love is in the air~ lol.. hey, today aren't end of the world alright, don't look so surprised.. can't i fall in love again? sigh.. who's that poor thing this time? lol.. why should i tell? i won't tell you guys. happy finding out~ =P

yeah yeah, get to know this special someone, not from my school, not from outside.. from irc.. lol.. what? another stupid cyber crush again? to hell with you! don't compare me with others online, they're just brainless.. at least i really love her.. have been thinking all these while.. she might be the one for me.. and i really hope she's the one for me.. now i can really hope she loves me too.. emm.. i'll stop all these mushy stuff.. =P

oh yeah, i've received about 3 emails regarding this blog. seems like its really getting attention from people all over Singapore. and how they get to know about my blog? eh, thankz to some busybodies, this blog of mine have been introduced to them by my friends lor. who else? lol.. nah, its alright letting others know this blog, if all this crap suits them. why should i care? =P

hey, the NTU student treating curry puffs today. he's going off soon, might be the last meal with him.
goner go eat.
munch munch~ =D

Eh...
must be wondering why i didn't blog for such a long time after my lunch break?
tell ya something, my comp was so hungry it went so strike... it simplily 'dies' after i had finished my lunch and came back..
so, spent the whole noon finding whats wrong with that damn thing..

so, the RAM came today too.. spent almost an hour installing the RAM into that damn thing.. but it seems to have no use at all, it aren't going any faster either. no idea why don't the company just change the whole fu*king system.. sucky comps..

hmm.. no idea.. but i somehow don't feel like crapping now.. no mood.. maybe because my moodswings coming again.. urgh.. don't you know? i'm a cancerian.. cancerian have moodswings.. and they can be very serious too.. nearly broke up with one of my ex last time because of my moodswings.. things just don't go your way when you have them.. hmm.. somehow it strucks me that it is somewhat similar to females having your one month once stuff.. lol.. where was i thinking.. *bish myself..*

sigh.. felt so sianz..
maybe i'll stop here also..
continue tomorrow..
-_o <--- *or ba cut* liaoz..

Whew...
finally managed to stay awake till lunch break.. that idiot's goner go get me lunch again.. aren't me bad? =P
so, no more nasi lemak today.. guess what? its nasi brani.. lol.. whats the damn diff.. sad..

hmm, no more WC matches for 2 days.. so what i goner do later? sigh.. i always chase after the score at www.livescore.com and figure who goner win.. you know, there is some 'kick' betting live matches =P how? through internet of cause~ hmm? credit card? i'm using my bro's account~ so bad? nah, he let me used it. anyway, i'd won a fortune betting NBA matches already.. those few hundred bucks are mine man.. furthermore he only gave me 50 to start with. lol..

hmm, japanese, koreans and hongkong highschool students are so busy nowadays.. all preparing for their exams.. so you singaporeans should be glad you all are on holidays~ lol.. sigh.. kind missed their mails.. its always interesting to make foreign friends =] and it'll be great when you go visit them or they come visit you! cause either of you will become the tour guide and both will enjoy together.. isn't that sweet? well, just too bad.. i actually had a korean friend supposed to visit Singapore with her dad 2 months ago.. but it was cancelled in the end as her dad has no more buisness here.. heard her saying her daddy lost more than a few million wons overnight.. sad thing eh?

ever wondered why you aren't rich? and other suckers are driving BMWs, Poches, or even Ferraris and Lamboghinis around sg road? fook them man.. i hate rich men's kids.. yaya, being jealous is one stupid reason.. but i hate them cause they think they're so big so rich and can fook around not respecting anyone else. money is everything eh? wait till i get rich, i'll show them the real value of a single dollar. FOOK them all.. arrogant bunch of kids..

sigh.. really wondering if i ever get to be rich.. you know, 2k/mth can't really support somebody.. needless to say a family... i really wonder what kind of jobs or oppotunities i'll have in the future.. hope its not lesser than 3k.. chi bu bao er bu si.. can't be full yet won't die.. sigh.. sad feeling..

kK.. nasi brani here liaoz..
go makan..
don't disturb ah~

Yoz...
why must i always have a bad bad morning each day? dunno whats so damn wrong with this fu*king comp, its driving me NUTS!!! URGH!!! can't even surf the stupid net just now.. driving me crazy.. really REALLY goner throw this thrash downstairs.. soon.. sigh..

well, guess what? i woke up late this morning.. yeah yeah, laugh all you want at me.. but i did manage to catch that bus, as its always going away later than than it should. not bad eh? lol.. fell asleep on the bus.. than when i woke up i realise that theres 2 sms.. i was really wondering then, who will wake up early in the morning and sms me? lol.. well, she's none other than Vanessa? *winkz* wondering what she sms me? don't tell you~ =P *himitsu*

well, basketball yesterday was sucky.. at least they were sucky.. an arrogant bunch of fools crossed my path. actually they really made my day~ never felt so happy thrashing people at basketball for such a long time~ LaLaLa~ orbee lah, challenge us for a game.. say we all timid 'bo ji' play with them.. nb, make us all FLAMED UP man.. we were just TIRED after playing 2 matches already! fook them! think they are so good right? have no mercy on them man! urgh.. emm.. am i too vulgar anyway? kK, try to control.. who ask them to find me out of so many others in the court.. worthless bunch of fools.. anyway, if its such a coincidence them looking at my blogspot now, its you IDIOT! 18th June night at blk300+!! 3on4!! don't look around!! YOU!! and you guys lose to us when we were one player short!! Felt insulted? YOU SHOULD!!

sigh, actually i shouldn't really have played with them.. my old wound was actually hurting me before playing with the fools.. although i won't feel anything much while playing, its always the aftermath that makes me regret playing lor. imagine theres a sharp pain on your knees each step you walk.. and the damn court is so far from my home.. sianz.. in the end never get to meet my Qing Mei Zhu Ma somemore.. saddening.. why? leg pain lah! how to go out with a leg that pains you till you're sweating all over?? lol.. anyway, i sweat too much that day.. it won't be that.. emm... pleasant.. =x
was planning to play play only.. URGH... its all those FOOLS' FAULT!!! FOOK THEM!!!

hey, Korea won yesterday!! yeah!! so my poor friends lost as they all betted on Italy. Orbee lah, tell them don't bet on host country matches still go bet. don't say i never say anything. hmm, my email was flooded, managed to reply all. but there were some that i don't really care about.. lol.. i'm bad? who can be worse? =P

speaking of emails.. hey, strangely enough i have been receiving feedbacks from many others. feedbacks on what you may ask? i had a surprise myself.. they were all emailing me about this blogspot, and most were strangers. pretty cool eh? i had no idea since when my blogspot had been so famous, its been only 3 days, but it seems like alot of people were paying attention to all my crap! lol.. wondering what went wrong.. they all told me a common thing, they simply laugh their head off looking at my entries.. am i really that of a JOKER? DUH.. -.-

and lastly, a few doubts to clear.. seems like a few have been asking me about my height and weight from the emails too.. they told me they keep seeing me posting that i'm 'short'. well, to me, 172 is short, and i'm short, so you guess my height? lolz.. for a certain somebody who played basketball since primary6 till poly year3, 172 is definately way short.. so please, no emails about me being a shortie anymore... DUH.. -.-

kK, i had enough this morning.. goner go work..
later~

Sianz...
Japan lost.. guess i goner get lots of complain mails from all my japanese penpals.. hope Korea win tonight, if not i won't wanna check my emails and letterbox for weeks..

shit.. feeling bit feverish now.. how? must i skip bball later? aww.. its only once a week.. if i don't go i'll miss the chance to work out.. didn't go last week.. sigh.. bball is one thing.. what about kopi? sianz.. don't wish to find another day leh.. so sad.. so nan de get her out.. sigh..

jie called just now.. asking me out again.. lol.. since the day we met she keeping asking me out de.. everytime complain about her bf too.. me so sianz.. don't worry.. never told her i had webby here.. lol.. wish she'll concentrate on her studies.. last year at NUS le still fooling around.. sad case.. guess her didi me not that free lah.. =P

20 more mins before i got off work..
yeah~ another day gone~ happy~
i guess this is it lah~
until tomorrow~ =P

Whew...
finally lunch break.. guess whats for lunch today? yeah yeah, NASI LEMAK again.. sianz.. been having the same food EVERYDAY.. there aren't anything nice at the hawker here anyway.. and its so damn crowded.. wtf.. luckily i have someone to buy for me everytime.. lol.. poor chap.. guess i've been bullying him too much already..

hmm.. to talk about my partner? well, he's a year older.. a blur guy, slightly taller than me, and i HATE that.. skinny fellow.. always playing neopets.. wondering when will he grow up.. guys my age should know how to think already.. needless to say his age.. lol..

wanna guess what he did just now? he went to list out all the pets in neopets.. lol.. he missed out a few, and he asked ME.. wtf.. how the hell would i know?!?!? brainless.. he can be a good friend though.. but too bad he aren't mine..

lala.. listening to that savage garden CD everyday.. why? cause i had not beening buying CDs for YEARS.. its a pity they disbanded.. right Jiarui? songs are so nice.. and i mean the second album.. the first was kinda like a failure.. =P
my partner bring his Long Vacation OST everyday.. and i was going nuts at first listening to that all the time.. luckily he didn't complain about SG.. lol..

chat with my boss just now.. hmm.. seems like someone had passed away and dunno who.. they're all discussing about something i dunno.. better just chuck at my food.. anyway, the NTU attachment student here goner go soon.. huh? what NTU student? i didn't tell you? oh.. i didn't.. he is under attachment too.. for 6 WHOLE MONTHS.. whew, really admire him.. wondering how he survive that long.. i'm dying here only after 6weeks.. 2 more weeks to go.. sigh...

so what i goner do later? scanning ofcos.. seems like theres a new batch of files to scan agian.. sucky.. wish all the files would be burnt one day.. damn..

what i goner do tonight? oh yeah, what else? basketball~ don't you know? i've been playing basketball twice in a week with my old bball buddies.. glad to be back like last time.. we always spend the whole day long training together last time.. we always reach school at 9am when we're still during the noon shift for sec school.. lol.. don't ask me why i'm still so short.. you know i HATE that.. -.-

yeah, maybe after bball i might be meeting someone to la kopi.. who? don't tell you.. just someone.. =]
don't let your imaginations run wild.. just some long lost friend.. really really very long.. since pri6? lol... she moved.. what to do.. she was my Qing Mei Zu Ma last time wor.. lol.. wondering how much had she changed.. heard she's one gorgeous babe.. i guess she will be laughing her head off if she saw me the way i am now.. sigh.. maybe i really shouldn't be meeting her tonight..

Hey
More than angry words I hate this silence
It's getting so loud
Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It's getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a gold diamond ring?
I'm willing to do anything
To calm the storm in my heart
I've never been the praying kind
But lately I've been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe...

Nice lyrics eh? lol.. guess which song? you got yourself a hint long ago.. =]

kK, gtg, break ended long ago..
can't eat too much snake, won't stoop that low..
tata~

Backz...
that Jiarui wanted me to add him.. hmm.. just added him.. he might be posting any min? lol.. faggot.. better don't let me see him posting shity stuff here..

where was i anyway? hold on, i'll check.. oh.. about life.. sigh.. had enough of that already.. let me continue kp next time..

hmm.. lately keep going irc.. sucky right? i think so too.. sucky.. bored to death at home.. watching that stupid WC.. can't believe USA won yest.. lol.. made money.. although just 25bucks.. =P
hmm, OOP.. kK, back.. irc sucks.. lol.. but what to do.. i'm so bored.. nothing i can do right.. chat with people lor.. manged to know a few.. like who? why should i tell you? lol.. glad to know them.. great friends.. =]

oh yeah, by the way, WELCOME BACK Tingting.. how's the trip form Japan? can't wait to meet you one of these days.. really wondering what wallet you bought for me from there.. haha.. hope its not too exp.. i'm so envious you get to watch WC there.. although you said its boring.. lol.. i'm kinda glad you're coming back earlier than planned though.. cause my birthday's coming.. and you were supposed to come back only after that special day.. special to me lah.. can? -.-

huh? what? who Tingting is? not my gf lah.. just a good friend.. someone good enough to buy me stuff at Tokyo.. lolz.. ting.. *HuGz* thanks ah~ love ya for that~

sad sia.. to think of gf.. let me count.. i'm steadless for how many months already? lol.. look at my hair.. i guess no one goner want me anyway.. haha.. planning to do something already.. hope that helps.. urgh.. just feeling so sad.. seems like i can't find anyone that attracts me lately.. physically.. sigh.. getting from bad to worse.. well, at least i'm not that.. playful anymore? hmm, last time used to see one like one.. nowadays.. like die le.. inside me die le.. dunno what happen again.. haha.. sometimes i think i'm so mysterious myself.. i'm gettting crazy... nvm...

hmm.. funny huh.. lately got many people say me look like alot of people, sound like alot of people.. like who? lolz.. Jialin say i sound like her friend... look like WeWe... *please don't vomit.. this is what she say.. nothing to do with me..* then still got who? i think Esther say i look like her friend alot.. so amused that day we met one each other months ago.. lol.. she thought i'm her friend playing tricks.. well, never get to meet that 'friend' of hers anyway.. so nvm.. Jane told me i look like her ex victor... so who the hell that VICTOR is anyway? urgh.. she said he's much handsome than i am.. yeah yeah.. i know i'm ugly.. sad..

better stop all these crap first.. work coming in.. got to SCAN again.. -.-
yaya.. tata..

Urgh..
just reached the office not long ago.. i still can't figure out why this office's aircon is damn fu*king COLD! maybe because i'm having the biggest office in the whole company? you must be wondering why i'm having the biggest office instead of my boss, right? its because this office belongs to my boss's boss, and he rarely comes here, like once every half a year? lol.. *evil grin*

you know, the first thing i thought of stepping into this office is to complain.. hey! this blog stuff really comes in handy! hell yeah! now you guys know i love to kpkb around.. lol..

never really slept well last night.. keep thinking of stuff.. yeah yeah, i know, don't think too much lah, this is what you guys keep telling me.. i can't help it~ but lately, i really have this feeling i'm getting lonely.. lol.. this is CRAP~ well, at least i hope it is..

can't help myself, keep thinking that friends are getting further away from me.. like who? lotsa~ like my classmates definately.. hmm, you know, i was kinda close to them during the first two years, or should i say year1 only.. then i dunno how the hell broke loose, seems like i'm having some attitude problem or what-so-ever, i just can't seem to communicate well with them.. even Jiarui, didn't really hear from him lately.. needless to say seeing him.. kinda miss him though.. HEY!! ME NOT GAY!! -.-

urgh.. life sucks? lol.. nah, thats what i used to believe.. now, its like so stupid thinking that way.. it won't make me any happier to be pessismistic right? although i still sound i am.. lol.. whatever.. this is my complain page.. if you have any problems complain to me lah! =P

well, what to do.. walk one step count one step, this is what most chinese would say.. right? yeah yeah, it sound kinda true lah, but its kinda stupid to think this way too.. what about your future? have you ever thought of that? ever thought of when you goner have your first baby? ever? no? too bad.. cause once you're at my age, which is 19 this year, you have to start thinking of many shity stuff..

when will you get married? what will you do after NS? when you goner start a small family? how many children you wish to have with your dear wife? all these actually, has a common factor.. MONEY.. Singaporeans are realistic.. what to do.. i am a Singaporean too.. can't blame me.. i admit though, i never save money.. and this is a BIG BAD mistake.. should have started to save money when young.. its so DAMN important.. studies need money.. play need money.. movies need money.. marriage need money.. car need money.. house need money.. babies need money.. everything is connected to that fu*king money.. i really wonder what can a person really do when he's poor.. can only say he's hopeless.. *sigh.. wish i was a african native..*

so, conclusion? start to save? haha, maybe i will.. wait till i find a job.. when you ask? let fate decides? i admit again, i'm too lazy to find one.. always waiting for them to drop form the sky.. lol.. this is one BIG BAD mistake too.. but, jobs nowadays aren't that easy to find.. so, if you have lobang.. CALL ME LAH!!

kk, got to go get some HOT coffee.. shivering here.. continue later..
ciao~

Yo! Yo! Yo!
Hey! this is the first time i'm posting here. can't believe i'm actually doing this piece of sh*t.. hmm, thanz to a certain somebody (hey Cheryl, thanz huh..), never actually thought i will start something here. looks to me its more like an online diary.. have to kill time, maybe this do come in handy.. *evil grins*

well, first time posting, what should i talk about? hmm, anyone interested to know anything about me? or should i just crap around? i don't think anyone goner see this either.. maybe i shouldn't have started this.. *really starting to regret..*

working on my SICKENING attachment job now, hate it! i just get to scan and scan and scan and scan and scan, EVERYDAY.. really wondering what i can come up with for the daily report and the stupid '1k words' essay.. shity.. and the worse thing is this stupid pc has lotsa VIRUS.. urgh.. really wish i can throw it downstairs..

for your info, i'm working at PSB (Singapore Productivity and Standards Board), Tuas.. sounds miserable right? got to travel so far so early in the morning.. sucky.. but the people here are nice though.. can't help it i guess.. *sigh..* 2 more weeks before i get the hell out of here.. can't wait!! then i'll throw one hell of a party! *evil grin*

hmm, Josephine called today.. early morning too, lets say like 3am in the morning? guess what? look at those eye bags now.. (emm, not saying you're trouble Joe.. just trying to complain.. if you ever get to see this.. =P)
well, you guys would be wondering what did we both talk about, right? giv'me 3 reasons why i should tell you? you're curious? love to gossip? and definately you're a pain in da ass? ifne, i'll tell ya..
just complaining to me about her bf.. duh.. how come i'm getting more and more such stuff nowadays.. can't you guys treat gals any better? sick of hearing stories whereby guys are always the culprits and the poor ladies are always the victims.. sianz..
well, as usual, didn't get to sleep much.. felt so damn sleepy now.. *yawn..* -_-zZzz...

getting off work, maybe i'll continue tonight if possible.. depends on mood lah..
adios~