Doing: Not doing anything
Music: Zhou Jie Lun [Ba Du Kong Jian] - Ban Dao Tie He
Mood: Hopeless

You know what?
i'm feeling damn bad now.. i can even cry i tell you.. but who will know? who's there to share with me? all i seems to be doing are things i shouldn't be doing.. i was supposed to be doing other stuff.. and today could have been a great day.. she called me.. even though its just for awhile at least she CALLED me! you know how great i felt then?

i went online to look for her.. yet i was being ignored.. or should i say i'm not the only one chatting with her? yeah.. and i spent the whole night sitting by my laptop staring at this damn screen waiting for her replies.. at first i went off as i really can't stand waiting for her.. she's not even replying..

in the end she dc.. and i didn't even know whether she's coming back.. so i waited there like an idiot again.. to know that in the end she won't be coming back.. from someone else.. yeah and why can't she msg me too? yeah i'm like a nobody.. I KNOW! am i hoping too much? am i really such an idiot? how come i'm always such stupid stuff? who am i anyway? i'm a NOBODY! so FORGET IT!

yeah.. laugh all you want.. i'm such a coward and i can only complain here.. but what really can i do? tell her that i'm suffering from her cruelty? then maybe she might be ignoring me for good? i don't wish to.. i won't let her know.. i doubt she will be reading all this stuff anyway..

its a crush..
yes..
and i can't help it can i?
someone helps me..

Doing: Slacking around..
Music: Zhou Jie Lun [Ba Du Kong Jian] - Ban Shou Ren..
Mood: Normal..

Hey..
its been long since that 'piss'ful day.. wondered what happened? nvm, its been so long already.. don't really remembered what happened anyway.. haha..

hmm.. today is a shiny day.. wondering what i'll doing later.. basketball? nah.. went yesterday.. swimming? nah.. no one accompanying me anyway.. really no idea what to do.. everyone seems to be so busy.. yet i'm here doing nothing.. haha..

hey.. i went to the library yesterday.. surprised? haha.. went to borrow a few books for my research on a project.. Internet Information Services 5.0, Win2k Server, Linux Apache, blah blah blah.. many stupid stuff.. most too chim for me to understand anyway.. haha..

someone pissed me off early in the morning.. he said we all agreed to meet 11am this morning in school.. there are 3 of us.. i didn't recall anything about the meeting.. so i didn't go.. the 3rd guy didn't go too.. msg us telling us he's busy with some important stuff and he couldn't join us.. nvm.. this aren't the first time he had 'important' stuff to do anyway.. just some lame excusses..

anyway.. he was in school by 11.. he called and yeah.. i was still sleeping.. definately.. i hate people calling me when i'm sleeping.. and my mood was rather foul then.. i really couldn't remember anything about the meeting.. so i told him i didn't know.. he's so pissed.. and without saying anything he cut my phone.. funny right? know how pissed i am? early morning? furthermore i sms him asking him whether he wish to do the proj at his house.. he didn't reply.. so i guess its a NO then? fine.. i'm more than happy not having to travel all the way to Woodlands.. you think its fun travelling that far? try it all the time then..

sigh.. JiaLin is so busy nowadays.. in fact she's the only JC student i know whom's studying so hard.. TingTing too.. studying hard for her 'O's.. everyone seems to neglecting me.. especially those important ones.. sigh.. i know they're all so busy.. but i'm just so lonely as well.. lol..

got to go..
important stuff..
cya..