Doing: Writing this stupid stuff..
Music: You Hong Ming - Lian Shang Ling Yi Ge Ren (recommended)
Mood: Love sick..

Yozz..
damn, so free lately.. school'd started, but somehow i have one more week of holidays before my lessons really start next monday.. so, lately i'm damn free at home doing nothing at all.. have a report to rush but don't really feel like doing, hungry but don't really feel like making dinner.. i'm feeling just like a zombie.. somebody helps me? lol..

i have a problem, maybe you guys can help me out? email me any suggestions?
i get to know this gal, and i really like her alot.. she's nice, caring and friendly, mature in thinking and always doing those things that will really surprise me.. her background and everyday life makes her a really special person, at least to me.. sometimes she's cute sometimes she's serious.. i really like her this way..

well, here is the problem.. we aren't really close.. although we know each other not long ago, i really wish i can get closer, you know? somehow she seldom replies my sms, yet sometimes she sms me nice pic msg, maybe its like since she's sending everyone might as well send me? haha, i don't know.. i do call her, but she's a busy person.. that i understand, the things she have to do everyday, if i'm her i'll go nuts.. so, in the end we seldom chat for long.. and most of the time i really miss her and really wish i can talk to her or even seeing her in person.. i'll go nuts after seeing her.. lol..

here's another problem.. seems like every other guys are going after her too? although she didn't really show much interest in them, but don't forget i'm one of them too? how to make myself special? how to stand out among the crowd? i wish to be the guy she'll really take interest in.. but, out of the so many whom are going after her, i guess i'm not really the best.. in fact, to compare with them, i felt so tiny, so useless.. all the guys have good points i don't have, have things that i don't possess.. so how am i suppose to fight against them? a pure heart has no use.. i know i know, sometimes one just has to be confident with himself.. but Jiarui was right, he said i'm not confident in this case..

somehow, while chatting with her, i have no idea why, i'm always tongue-tied.. i'm supposed to be experienced in love matters, always chatting with my female friends.. *oOps* i guess if i'm suppose to chase after other gals, i would have won their heart already.. lol.. but she's just so special.. somehow, i don't know what to talk about when i'm with her.. i felt so nervous.. so anxious.. and this is the first time i had ever felt this way.. somehow i feel that she's the one for me.. i will really love her if there's a chance.. and i'll really take care of her.. forever.. who won't want to find someone to take care of them their whole life? and who won't want to find someone whom they will take care of? love is always going two way..

so, any suggestions? how to get her attention..
please, feel free to email me your solutions..
i'll appreciate it very much..

stay sweet will ya?
tata~

Doing: Checking emails, chatting with friends...
Music: WKRZ 91.3FM
Mood: Sigh...

Sigh...
guess what? today is a damn boring day.. went to school early morning and found that there are no lessons.. there won't be any lessons for this whole week! cool huh? but how come i didn't know about it? damn.. travelled all the way to school for nothing.. fuck..

well, met John on the way to school, so at least i'm not alone.. then i met Jiarui and Huicun, went to collect their student ez-link cards, and we went for billard again.. sianz.. at least i didn't lose alot today, lol.. after billard we went orchard, both of them attending an interview for part time jobs.. i was like so extra~ i was supposed to be going home in the first place.. but the both of them asked me to join along.. guess i goner be very 'buey onz' if i didn't.. no choice?

well, Huicun dropped his phone on the bus 171, and that blur fucker didn't realise it until we alighted and went into Centrepoint.. lol.. so, in the end we ran all the way back to the bus-stop and catch the next bus going marina interchange.. luckily there won't be any people boarding the bus from orchard area as it is already near the end of the route, so nobody noticed there's a phone lying around.. he got back his phone, and we were lucky~

then, we rushed back to orchard, late for interview.. so both of them got interviewed, and i stood there looking blankly everywhere.. abit zhuo bo hor? saw many chio bu today, and saw a salesgal keep looking towards my direction.. normally i will think she's looking at Jiarui since he is yandao lor, but to my surprise Jiarui not around me? lol, chio bu looking at me wor? cause in my direction there's nothing else but boards, and ofcos me? lol.. who cares..

hmm, Huicun started training, so we have to wait for him till 9+.. so Jiarui and me went to the arcade and stayed there till he finished.. after that, we took mrt home, stopped at Marsiling and talk cock there.. wah liew.. so bo liao.. both of them talking about religious stuff? sianz1/2... zzzz....

reached home not long ago, just had my bath.. guess i goner go rest...
kooningz

Doing: At school, checking stuff..
Music: Aircon buzzing away..
Mood: Sianz..

Sorry, never been posting much lately..
school reopened, i've been so busy with my work lately.. been rushing stuff over and over again, felt so tough allocating time for my freetime.. hardly find time to go online checking emails and writing all these.. so, please bear with me if i didn't post anything for days.. =x

goner rush off very very soon, busy looking for stuff..
cya tonight, most prob~